It's funny how trials are really blessings in disguise... These last few months have been a bit tough. We moved out of our house (which is good), had a baby (who is cute, but has been a really difficult one), Bryan lost 90% of his employment, we are staying with my parents waaaay longer than anticipated due to insufficient funds, we have had thousands of dollars in medical bills (don't worry, just the baby mixed with various illnesses including Graham's big one), Bryan's car died, along with all of those daily things that stress and occupy energy.
Despite these hard things, I feel like they are really for the best. If Bryan had lost his work while we were still in our home we might have ruined our credit. If Bryan hadn't lost his work, he'd still be working for someone that he was unhappy with. Now he has some great opportunities that he is looking at. Staying with my parents has made this time with little income a lot easier and taught me how to be more frugal and be less worldly. Not to mention that I feel very lucky that my kids have been able to get to know my parents on a new level and this is time with them that is precious...
Now Graham has taught me some of the most important lessons. When he was just a few weeks old I was feeling very down. I suppose I had some baby blues. I was beginning to wonder if I was up to this Mom of four thing and if I had made a mistake having another baby when I did. I got to the point where all I could do was pray for help. When you seek help, the answer will always be there. Within a day or two the thing that was weighing me down the most was resolved and soon after that, Graham and I had come to an understanding and he was beginning to like me. :) He has since reminded me about my dependence on our Heavenly Father. This boy doesn't sleep well and one can only take not sleeping for so long. I don't know how many times I have spent time at 3:00 am praying that I will make it through the night and that Graham will sleep. Now he hasn't started sleeping through the night yet, but it is a good reminder to me that I need to rely on Father. I am a stubbornly independent person and I need that reminder.
So I guess the moral of the story is... I feel blessed! I feel like I am closer to my family, I am feel closer to my kids, I feel closer to my husband, and I feel closer to Heavenly Father. It's amazing what a little dependence does.
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Oh, Cindy, it's difficult to learn some of these lessons, but it sounds like you're an excellent student. Praying for a little break from lessons for you for awhile.
I didn't know that Bryan had lost 90% of his income! I do know that sometimes when 5 doors slam that things do start looking on the up and up. We all have our little trials in life. I do hope that things do start getting better. And I believe EVERYTHING in life does happen for a reason! Even though at the time it doesn't feel like it! Let me know when you'd like me to come down for a visit, even if we just hang out it'll be fun! :).. I miss and love ya! :).
I'm thinking of you, Cindy, and hoping all is well.
Love, Aunt Bonnie
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